Stundum l\u00ed\u00f0ur m\u00e9r einsog 9\/10 hlutar rith\u00f6fundastarfsins sn\u00faist um a\u00f0 vera bara lost og vita ekkert hva\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur \u00e1 af s\u00e9r a\u00f0 gera. \u00cd \u00e1r eru 25 \u00e1r \u2013\u00a0aldarfokkinsfj\u00f3r\u00f0ungur \u2013\u00a0fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g \u00e1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g myndi ey\u00f0a \u00e6vinni \u00ed \u00feetta og m\u00e9r finnst einsog \u00e9g \u00e6tti a\u00f0 vera farinn a\u00f0 venjast \u00feessu. \u00de\u00e1 var \u00e9g \u00ed Berl\u00edn \u00fear sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i enda\u00f0 \u00ed kj\u00f6lfar \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g f\u00f3r \u00ed danskan kennarask\u00f3la, sem var rekinn af bl\u00f6ndu af h\u00e1lfg\u00f6lnum hippum og til \u00feess a\u00f0 gera albrj\u00e1lu\u00f0um stal\u00ednistum, droppa\u00f0i \u00fat \u00far honum fyrirvaralaust \u00e1samt bandar\u00edskri p\u00f3l\u00ed-k\u00e6rustu, f\u00f3r \u00e1 puttafer\u00f0alag um Evr\u00f3pu sem enda\u00f0i me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 m\u00e9r var d\u00f6mpa\u00f0 \u00ed Genf \u2013\u00a0\u00fear sem \u00e9g bj\u00f3 undir Cornavin lestarst\u00f6\u00f0inni, me\u00f0 heimilislausu f\u00f3lki, \u00ed viku, \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g st\u00f6kk upp \u00ed lest og fann m\u00e9r athvarf hj\u00e1 norskri vinkonu minni \u00ed Berl\u00edn (sem vissi ekki a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri von \u00e1 m\u00e9r \u2013 af \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 var svo erfitt a\u00f0 n\u00e1 \u00ed f\u00f3lk \u00e1 \u00feessum t\u00edma). \u00deanga\u00f0 kom \u00e9g m\u00e1nu\u00f0i fyrir 10 \u00e1ra afm\u00e6li m\u00farfallsins \u2013 \u00e9g var 21 \u00e1rs, ekki \u00ed sk\u00f3la, ekki \u00ed sambandi, ekki \u00ed vinnu, \u00e1tti enga peninga, bj\u00f3 inn \u00e1 vinkonu minni sem bj\u00f3 sj\u00e1lf \u00ed komm\u00fanu (e\u00f0a st\u00f3ru WG) me\u00f0 10 \u00f6\u00f0rum \u2013\u00a0og sirkab\u00e1t alveg lost. \u00c9g segi ekki a\u00f0 \u00feetta hafi alltaf veri\u00f0 jafn miki\u00f0 villur\u00e1f \u00ed rugli \u2013\u00a0og \u00feessi \u00e1kv\u00f6r\u00f0un sem \u00e9g t\u00f3k \u2013 sem var sk\u00fdr og \u00e1kve\u00f0in,\u00a0\u00feetta er tilteki\u00f0 augnablik, tiltekin upplj\u00f3mun, og f\u00f3lst me\u00f0al annars \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 f\u00e1 m\u00f6mmu til a\u00f0 senda m\u00e9r ritv\u00e9l \u2013 var vel a\u00f0 merkja ekki villur\u00e1f heldur einmitt stefna, \u00e1tt, markmi\u00f0, \u00e1str\u00ed\u00f0ufullt og af festu. Og kannski sn\u00fdst starfi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 einfaldlega um a\u00f0 marka s\u00e9r stefnu \u2013\u00a0me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed foror\u00f0i a\u00f0 marki\u00f0 \u00f3lj\u00f3st, \u00f3v\u00edst, s\u00edbreytilegt. Fegur\u00f0in? Sannleikurinn? E\u00f0a \u00f6llu heldur \u2013\u00a0fegur\u00f0in! Sannleikurinn! Stundum l\u00edka r\u00e9ttl\u00e6ti\u00f0! Stundum hefur \u00fea\u00f0 bara veri\u00f0 tungum\u00e1li\u00f0 \u2013\u00a0einhver leikur, einhver dans, brot og bygging merkingar og merkingarleysis. Og stundum hefur \u00fea\u00f0 bara veri\u00f0 leigan, maturinn og bj\u00f3r, s\u00edg\u00f3 og kaffi fyrir afganginn. Stundum: a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a d\u00e1\u00f0ur! Glory! Ver\u00f0laun! En oft \u2013\u00a0oftast \u2013 alla venjulegu dagana \u2013\u00a0er \u00feetta einn af tveimur eltingaleikjum. S\u00e1 fyrri sn\u00fdst um a\u00f0 finna b\u00f3k. Hva\u00f0 langar mig a\u00f0 skrifa um og hvernig langar mig a\u00f0 skrifa um \u00fea\u00f0? S\u00e1 seinni sn\u00fdst um a\u00f0 komast fr\u00e1 fyrsta or\u00f0inu a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed s\u00ed\u00f0asta. \u00deeir renna reyndar miki\u00f0 til saman \u00e1 \u00e1kve\u00f0nu stigi \u2013\u00a0ma\u00f0ur veit ekkert hvort mann langar a\u00f0 skrifa einhverja b\u00f3k, e\u00f0a hvort hana langar a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta skrifa sig, fyrren ma\u00f0ur er b\u00fainn a\u00f0 skrifa a.m.k. 10-20 \u00fe\u00fasund or\u00f0 og l\u00e1ta \u00feau hv\u00edla a\u00f0eins. \u00de\u00e1 kemur ma\u00f0ur aftur a\u00f0 b\u00f3kinni og \u00e1ttar sig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hvort h\u00fan er fokheld e\u00f0a ekki og oft \u2013\u00a0alltof oft \u2013\u00a0reynist h\u00fan l\u00f6ngu fokin \u00fat \u00ed ve\u00f0ur og vind. H\u00e9r skrifar sem sagt ma\u00f0ur sem var a\u00f0 koma a\u00f0 fj\u00f3r\u00f0a sp\u00fdtnabrakinu \u00ed \u00e1r \u2013\u00a0n\u00fdkomin \u00e1 skrifstofuna eftir sumarfr\u00ed, og h\u00e9r er ekkert noth\u00e6ft til a\u00f0 vinna me\u00f0. Og \u00fea\u00f0 er ofan \u00ed \u00e1byggilega 20 \u00e1g\u00e6tis hugmyndir sem komust aldrei af sta\u00f0. \u00c9g \u00e6tla ekkert a\u00f0 lj\u00faga \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 neinum a\u00f0 \u00feetta er svol\u00edti\u00f0 bugandi. En kannski er \u00feetta bara e\u00f0lilegt eftir 2023 \u2013\u00a0\u00e9g skrifa\u00f0i \u00f3hemju fyrri part \u00e1rsins, einsog andsetinn ma\u00f0ur, og skila\u00f0i af m\u00e9r 600 bla\u00f0s\u00ed\u00f0na do\u00f0ranti \u2013 sem \u00e9g fylgdi svo eftir me\u00f0 \u00f6llu sem \u00e9g \u00e1tti. \u00dea\u00f0 m\u00e1tti kannski bara b\u00faast vi\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 t\u00e6ki\u00f0 l\u00f3ni\u00f0 sm\u00e1 t\u00edma a\u00f0 fyllast aftur. Og \u00edslenska akkor\u00f0stemp\u00f3i\u00f0 \u2013\u00a0helst b\u00f3k \u00e1 \u00e1ri \u2013\u00a0er brj\u00e1l\u00e6\u00f0i og ekki til \u00feess a\u00f0 stu\u00f0la a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 b\u00e6kur ver\u00f0i eins g\u00f3\u00f0ar og \u00fe\u00e6r geta or\u00f0i\u00f0. \u00c9g veit bara ekki alveg hva\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e1 a\u00f0 gera af sj\u00e1lfum m\u00e9r me\u00f0an \u00e9g b\u00ed\u00f0 \u00feess a\u00f0 l\u00f3ni\u00f0 fyllist \u2013 og nei, svari\u00f0 er ekki a\u00f0 taka a\u00f0 s\u00e9r fullt af n\u00fdjum verkefnum e\u00f0a setja s\u00e9r fullt af spennandi markmi\u00f0um. Sennilega er svari\u00f0 einmitt \u00fever\u00f6fugt \u2013 manni \u00fearf a\u00f0 lei\u00f0ast svol\u00edti\u00f0 hressilega. Stara \u00fat \u00ed geim \u00ed nokkra m\u00e1nu\u00f0i \u00ed vi\u00f0b\u00f3t, kl\u00f3ra s\u00e9r \u00ed nefinu og d\u00e6sa. \u00deetta er l\u00edklega \u00fea\u00f0 sem Lilja Sigur\u00f0ard\u00f3ttir kallar a\u00f0 \u201ed\u00falla s\u00e9r\u201c vi\u00f0 b\u00f3k \u00ed tv\u00f6 \u00e1r ( \u00ed vi\u00f0tali \u00e1 R\u00daV um daginn \u2013\u00a0\u00fear sem fram kom a\u00f0 \u00feess \u00feyrftu n\u00fa krimmah\u00f6fundarnir ekki). Og kemur au\u00f0vita\u00f0 til af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 \u00feurfum a\u00f0 f\u00e1 n\u00fdja hugmynd \u00ed hvert skipti. Annars held \u00e9g a\u00f0 tv\u00f6 \u00e1r s\u00e9 of stutt fyrir margar b\u00e6kur og a\u00f0 \u00e9g gefi sj\u00e1lfur \u00fat oftar en \u00e9g \u00e6tti a\u00f0 gera. \u00c9g var \u00ferj\u00fa \u00e1r a\u00f0 skrifa N\u00e1tt\u00farul\u00f6gm\u00e1lin \u2013 \u00fea\u00f0 var \u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 minnsta \u00fe\u00f3tt lokaspretturinn hef\u00f0i kannski aldrei geta\u00f0 veri\u00f0 minna intens\u00edfur en hann var \u2013\u00a0\u00e9g var ekki a\u00f0 keppast vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 koma \u00fat b\u00f3kinni fyrir hausti\u00f0 heldur keppast vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 halda \u00fer\u00e6\u00f0i, halda dampi. Kannski \u00fearf ma\u00f0ur a\u00f0 skrifa hratt \u2013\u00a0en ma\u00f0ur \u00fearf a\u00f0 hugsa h\u00e6gt og mi\u00f0a \u00ed r\u00f3 og n\u00e6\u00f0i \u00e1\u00f0ur en ma\u00f0ur byrjar. Og g\u00e6ta s\u00edn \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 rembast ekki vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra h\u00e1lfdau\u00f0ar hugmyndir til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u201eskrifa eitthva\u00f0\u201c heldur finna \u00fe\u00e6r sem trylla mann sj\u00e1lfan, \u00fe\u00e6r sem ver\u00f0a \u00e1r\u00ed\u00f0andi \u00ed sj\u00e1lfum s\u00e9r. \u00deetta ver\u00f0ur a\u00f0 f\u00e1 a\u00f0 taka sinn t\u00edma. Og svo \u00fearf l\u00edka a\u00f0 gefa s\u00e9r t\u00edma til a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra. Setningarnar \u00feurfa allar a\u00f0 vera g\u00f3\u00f0ar. Au\u00f0vita\u00f0 eru b\u00e6kur aldrei alveg tilb\u00fanar \u2013 \u00fea\u00f0 er h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 d\u00falla s\u00e9r vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r a\u00f0 eil\u00edfu \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0\u00a0\u00fe\u00e6r ver\u00f0i \u201egallalausar\u201c og ekki markmi\u00f0 \u00ed sj\u00e1lfu s\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r ver\u00f0i 100 \u00fe\u00fasund fullkomin or\u00f0 \u00ed fullkominni r\u00f6\u00f0, galdur sagnab\u00f3kmennta liggur \u00ed einhverju \u00f6\u00f0ru, jafnvel \u00ed kaosinu, agn\u00faunum, \u00e1str\u00ed\u00f0unni frekar en f\u00e1guninni, og alls ekki \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ge\u00f0jast \u00f6llum, alls ekki \u00ed l\u00e6gsta samnefnara, alls ekki \u00ed almennum vins\u00e6ldum. Og kannski er \u00fea\u00f0 einmitt vandam\u00e1li\u00f0 \u2013\u00a0\u00fea\u00f0 sem gerir mann svona lost \u2013\u00a0a\u00f0 \u00feurfa a\u00f0 finna upp \u00feennan galdur upp \u00e1 n\u00fdtt \u00ed hvert skipti. Og svo veit \u00e9g reyndar l\u00edka alveg a\u00f0 finni \u00e9g \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 finna \u2013\u00a0hva\u00f0 sem \u00fea\u00f0 n\u00fa er \u2013\u00a0\u00fe\u00e1 g\u00e6ti \u00feess vegna veri\u00f0 tilb\u00fain b\u00f3k fyrir \u00e1ram\u00f3t. En \u00fea\u00f0 g\u00e6ti l\u00edka alveg teki\u00f0 mig heilt \u00e1r \u00ed vi\u00f0b\u00f3t a\u00f0 finna \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 finna. Og \u00fe\u00e1 ver\u00f0ur eiginlega bara a\u00f0 hafa \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Stundum l\u00ed\u00f0ur m\u00e9r einsog 9\/10 hlutar rith\u00f6fundastarfsins sn\u00faist um a\u00f0 vera bara lost og vita ekkert hva\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur \u00e1 af s\u00e9r a\u00f0 gera. \u00cd \u00e1r eru 25 \u00e1r \u2013\u00a0aldarfokkinsfj\u00f3r\u00f0ungur \u2013\u00a0fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g \u00e1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g myndi ey\u00f0a \u00e6vinni \u00ed \u00feetta og m\u00e9r finnst einsog \u00e9g \u00e6tti a\u00f0 vera farinn a\u00f0 venjast \u00feessu. \u00de\u00e1 var \u00e9g … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa: Ma\u00f0ur l\u00e6rir a\u00f0 d\u00falla s\u00e9r<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5398","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5398","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5398"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5398\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5398"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5398"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/norddahl.org\/fjallabaksleidin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5398"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}